So here's a category I belong to: people who retire (or partially retire) before their spouses, who have one or more significant interest, e.g. pottery, but who are ADD and chronic procrastinators, which makes them bad at structuring their time when they're not on deadline, which, because they're retired (or partially retired) they rarely are (on deadline), so they rarely even get around to doing what they love because they're always putting off doing various other things they feel they should accomplish before they get to what they love. So they knock around feeling vaguely lonely but mostly just dissatisfied with themselves.
I don't know how many people are in this category, but I can't be the only one!
Anyway, at the moment I'm seeing my daily life as something under daily construction. Which all life is, I suppose, but the less structured and constricted it is, the more obvious this is. (We always have freedom, of course, even in the most severely constricted circumstances; my problem, however, is that I have too much freedom.)
I like the idea of carrying around with me all day the sense that I'm (always) constructing my life. It feels kind of Buddhist. It also feels kind of absurd for a woman of 66 (OK, 66 yrs and 19 months, but who's counting?)
I think I'm gonna have a good time tomorrow with my Construction Project.
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